It’s been a long time, and mostly the reason is because Alex has read this blog. I feel pretty uncomfortable about people I know reading it unless I’ve specifically told them about it, which is understandably ridiculous since everything on here is public anyway. But I’ve asked him not to read it, so hopefully he won’t. This blog has always been something I’ve been mildly embarrassed about, and the long absences are always because the embarrassment has taken over.
Edit: I realise that I never explained anything about that sad last post I did. I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years, and in doing so lost my closest friend. I found it very difficult to deal with and couldn’t write anything without talking about it, so chose not to. Nine months on, I am happier than I’ve been in a long time and I’ve moved on.
There have been so many things I want to write about, things I want to tell the world (excluding my friends haha), but I never have the courage to. The things I write on here, like the All About That Bass post or the Band Aid one, those are about topics which really made me think and feel things. I put a stupid amount of time and effort into articulating the way I feel and making them something I can be proud of writing. I haven’t had much time to write about a lot of the other topics that I care about but there really are a whole load of them.
Sadly, I do understand that very few people will ever be affected by what I have to say. The nature of blogging is that most views come from social media shares- something I find so cringe I will most likely never ever do it. Looking at my analytics confirms that a majority of my views have come from shares on Facebook, then Twitter and not WordPress.
Even so, I’m going to keep writing. It’s like there’s something I have to put out there, to let somebody, anybody know. I’m going to try and write at least one post every month from now on. So Joseph you’re going to have some reading to do 😹.